This blog post is to share an opinion and some experience with you.
When I was a student in high school, I was always the average-like guy. I was always brought down for having low grades in physics which really was gibberish to me. I was constantly trained to compare myself to others and to base my happiness and self-satisfaction on other people’s view of me or better yet, my academic yieldings in subjects I was clearly not interested in.
I always suggested ideas which were typically good ones. But, straight A students always had their ideas heard first and foremost. Averages were invisible.
As time converged to graduation from high school, and having been accepted to an elitist university in the country, I was excited but worried. More excited than worried. It was similar to the feeling a prisoner would get the moment he’s told that he has been set free. I had a fifteen year duty and it was time to let go.
I let go. I kicked off my university experience. I discovered colors within me I never knew existed. I was bursting in colors and ideas and emotions that were untamed, at that moment. I engaged in the entire experience. In between education and student activism, I was belonging to that place like it was home. It was home.
I went abroad for a semester which added up even more colors to my profile. I became someone that is in constant variability. I was never fixated on one idea for too long. I evolved my mentality, my attitude, and view on matters quite quickly.
I came back from a multicultural experience to my last semester at university. I overloaded some courses. Did an internship with an international non-governmental organization with work I was specifically interested in doing pertaining vulnerability areas in the country.
I graduated. I had a one-month summer vacation which was full of people telling me a lot of things which were not sparkling with positivism.
You will apply everywhere. You will stay unemployed for a minimum of 4 months after graduating. Go for Masters.
I applied to one vacancy which my profile supposedly fit. I was interviewed and I got the full time position. I was so happy and in denial but I was happy. I was proud of myself. I deserved it. I worked hard for it. I got it.
Also, in line with this, I had the chance to join a team of founders of an independent news website namely Beirut Today tackling issues of great importance to all. I became the Managing Editor of Beirut Today while being the Research Officer at this international organization I’m work in.
I was so happy but I wasn’t in denial anymore. I adapted to the facts.
I lived with what ambition did to me.